It's amazing how quickly rumours are spread and changed...

I'm not going to go into detail about the exact matter that is bothering me as this isn't the place to vent it, but I shall give you all a brief picture. And if you all think why? My blog is somewhere for me to vent my thoughts, hopes, dream and fears. It is also a place to vent my anger, frustration, confusion and generally things that bother me. Don't like that? Don't read this. My blog isn't for the benefit of readers and followers, it's for me to vent, to somewhat avoid bottling things up to the point where I explode.

Basically, a friend told someone a few porkies, well not really porkies, sort of her view on things, how she saw something. And now I have to explain to an old friend that nothing is going on with me and her boyfriend. Kinda got to me, not the being accused, the whole lies and things being thrown about. It got me thinking. So my friend told this girl that I talk to her boyfriend a lot. Here's where it all starts. I haven't spoke to this lad in about 3 months, probably longer. Oh yeah, he asked me how I was doing yesterday in a like 10 min conversation. That's it.

I just find it amazing how quickly rumours are spread and changed, also how a friends opinion can be turned into a fact within minutes. Not only has this friend caused a big fuss over nothing at all and got me into poop, she's more than likely ruined a 2 year relationship by putting insecurities into this girls head, however, it also makes you think how much trust does this girl have if she believes someone she hasn't seen or talked to in a good year, over her boyfriend of 2 years. But again, you don't know what goes on behind closed doors.  My point is, you need to realise when to keep your gob shut and not fob off your opinion as a fact to someone. Oh and when you do, be prepared to have questions asked and to back up what you said, don't sit and say you're not getting involved when the whole situation is down to you.

I don't take to kindly to having lies told about me. Be prepared for the consequences. Simple.

Life is full of struggles, fall outs and drama but these can be reduced if people just tell the truth and be honest.

Anyway, on a lighter note, well kinda, I have a very, very sore throat, but my boyfriend is on his way for snuggles and a giggle, oh and possibly a rant. Got to love him, he's my rock, my best friend, not just my boyfriend. I'll go before you all ask me to pass the bucket. So yeah, toodles!

Get to know moi better - 100 questions.

1. Full name: Shannon Wilson

2. Nicknames: Shan/Shaz/Shannywan/Shabnab/Shabaz/Shazza Pee.

3. Eye Colour: Green.

4. Height: About 5ft.8"

5. Hair: Purpleee.

6. Siblings: One older sister!

7. Do u like to sing in the shower? Not really, no.

8. Do u like to sing on the toilet? Sadly no, I like to have my wonderful wees in peace.

9. Birthday: July 20th.

10. Sign: Cancer!

11. Address: Erm, I think I shall be passing on this question, don't want more stalkers thanks.

12. Sex: Female, duh.

13. Righty or lefty: Righty for lifey.

14. What do you want in a relationship most? Someone who's a best friend and a boyfriend who I can just laze about with and be one's self. (Got it)

15. Have you ever cheated? No.

16. Marital status: In a relationship.

17. Do you have a car? Bitch please. I can't even drive...YET.

18. What kinda car do you have/want? A Mini!

Favourite questions:

19. Movie: I have far to many! Back To The Future, Titanic, Grease, Dodgeball, He's Just Not That Into You...

20. Song: Again, I have a lot of favs so Ima say, Nevershoutnever - Hummingbird.

21. Band/singer: Nirvana/Queen/Michael Jackson/Asking Alexandria/The Prodigy/Nevershoutnever...Ect, ect.

22. TV Show: Friends/Ugly Betty/Family Guy/Eastenders/Will&Grace...Ect. Ect.

23. Actor: Don't have one!

24. Actress: America Farrera.

25. Food: ALL OF THE FOODS!

26. Number: 6

27. Cartoon: Family Guy

28. Disney Character: Ariel!

29. Colour: Pink or Black.

Love life ect:

30. Do you plan on having children? In the future, yes.

31. Do you want to get married? Of course!

32. How old do you wanna be when you have your first child? Like 28?

33. How old do you wanna be when you’re married: 25?

34. Would you have kids before marriage: No.

35. Do u have a b/f or g/f (who)?: Yers, Marcoooos.

37. Do you have a crush: ^^

Either-Or (Pick which one you prefer)

38. Music/TV: Music probably.

39. Guys/Girls: Guys.

40. Green/Blue: Blue .

41. Pink/Purple: Pink.

42. Summer/Winter: Summer.

43. Night/Day: Night.

44. Hangin Out/Chillin: Chillin like a villian.

45. Dopey/Funny: Funny.

46. You know I’m around when you hear: WEEWWWW.

47. What school do u go to? The worst school in the history of school, no joke.

48. Have you ever taken drugs? No and I never would.

49. What’s a major turn on for you? Faecal matter.

50. How far would you go on a first date? All the way to Newcastle.

51. Most blonde:

52. Funniest:
Tallest:
Smartest:
Best personality:
Best all round person:  - I refuse to answer these -___-

53. What do you think of soul mates? I believe in them, so aye.

54. Is it right to flirt if you have a bf/gf? No, it's not.

55. What was the last thing you cried over or got teary about? Something stupid, as usual.

56. What's something about guys/girls you don’t get: I don't get how guys can find orange girls attractive.

57. Are you happy? Yers.

58. Why? Because I have a lush family, an epic boyfriend and college is going well!

59. What’s an object you can’t live without? My fridge.

60. Love or lust: Love.

61. Silver or gold: Silver..

62. diamond or pearl: Both? Pearl, I'm like a granny.

63. Sunset or sunrise: Sunset!

64. Have you ever gone skinny-dipping: No, I have not.

65. Do you sleep with stuffed animals: Yeah, my camel son!

66. Do you have any piercings: Yers, MEEE EEYAZ!

67. what colour underwear are you wearing right now: Flowery ones because I'm cute as fook.

68. What song are u listening to right now? I'm not. Shocking.

69. What are the last four digits of your phone number? Like I'd tell yah! Pfttttt!

70. Where would you want to go on your honeymoon? Somewhere nice would be a start!

71. Who do u want to spend the rest of your life with? :$

72. What’s the first thing you notice about the opposite sex: Their appearance, duh.

73. Favourite sport? Dance!

74. What makes you happy? Cuddles, food and jarmies.

75. What’s the next c.d/s you’re gonna get? I'm not aha.

76. Do u wear contacts or glasses? I do not.

77. What’s the best advice given to you? Haters gonna hate.

78. Have u ever won any special awards? No :(

79. What are your future goals? To one day make a Corned Beef pie.

80. whats the worse sickness you’ve had? I dunno liek.

81. Do you like Funny or Scary movies better: FUNNY. Scary movies make me poop...

82. On the phone or in person? In personnn.

83. Hugs or kisses? Both.

84. What song seems to reflect you the most? I'm too sexy for my shirt. Obviously.

85. If you died tomorrow who would you leave everything you own to? The scrap man.

86. Do u have any enemies? Aye aha.

87. What is your greatest fear? Being forever alone.

88. Would you rather be rich or famous? A rich bitch.

89. What time is it in Albania now? I believe it's GTFO time.

90. Have you ever been in love? Yes.

91. Have you met Santa? Aye, he stole me food, douche.

92. If E.T. knocked on your door holding up a peace sign and asked you to use your phone, what would u do? Sell him on Ebay.

93. Last time you talked to the person that you like: I am now! BOOMSTFD!

94. Do u have any pets? Aye, two cats. MEOW.

95. Whats your email address? It's somewhere on hee-yah liek.

96. Last time you were depressed: I dunno pet.

97. Are you an alcoholic? No, I don't drink baby cakes.

98. Who sent this to you? No one aha.

99. What do you think of this person: ¬¬

100. Do u want your friends to write back? Whey aye liek pet.

A few picures of me and my beau...

I'm in a Christmassy mood!

Howdy!

Last year, I was not Christmassy, at all. In all honesty I realised that the magic had gone, when really I'd just grown up and out of the Christmas faze. Even on Christmas day, it just felt like another day, not like Christmas. *sighs* Growing up sucks! So yeah.

However, this year I am feeling particularly festive! Weirdly!

And with only 60 days to go, I already want to snuggle up with lots of baked goodies and watch ELF.

Oh and in my house, Christmas means lots of food. SCORE.

Jeez, I'm easily pleased! But yeah, lots of baking of pies and cakes goes on during the build up to crimbo, a huge win if you ask me. I am also looking forward to sipping numerous cups of tea and hot chocolate in front of the fire whilst having the music channels on to get me in the mood!

What's your favourite thing about Christmas?

We live in a sick world

We live in an awful world.

It's full of poverty, murder, rape, conflict, selfishness, war, hatred, anger, drama, depression and a million and one other flaws. What happened? It seems in the past when people had little money they appeared to be happier. They made the most of what they had. They didn't complain, they just used the means that they were given and made the best out of a bad situation. Now what? We live in a money driven world, full of selfishness and enthusiasm. It's full of scandal and drama. What ever happened to happy simple times? I sound like I'm about 70, but compared to my grandparent's generation, nowadays sucks. I dread to think what my generation are going to be like when we become old and frail. The majority of people my age are selfish. So imagine when you're old, unable to do simple tasks, who's going to help? I look and think jeez, what are we going to be like? A bunch of moody, tracksuit wearing, selfish old people? It scares me to think that in say, 50/60 years time, I could be in great need of help, and be left due to selfishness. Nowadays people have no morals, everything is handed to them on a plate, that's a big reason as to why my generation is a hell of a lot different to my grandparent's. Sure, it's nice having fancy gadgets, privilege and a little less worry about money compared to back then, but because of this the world is messed up. I hate my generation.

I sense someone is a tad in love...

Right this is going to be a really soppy post so if you're not a fan, or if the thought of someone being all lovely dovey makes you wanna vomit up your entire stomach contents, feel free to press the little cross in the corner, okay? Sorted.

Right, you're all familiar with the whole love thing yeah? You know, finding your prince charming, having him sweep you off your feet? Yeah? Well I don't seem to be like most girl/women/laydeees when it comes to looking for that lucky feller. Most girls go for someone who's stunning, who spoils them, worships them. Me? No. Looks honestly do not bother me. The whole muscly six pack thing does not appeal to me, I'd rather have someone who's a real man and can eat his body weight in pasties and challenge me to an eating contest. Not only do looks not appeal, but cockiness and arrogance are also a huge turn off. Oh and another thing I do not understand, the attraction to bad boys. I mean, I'd much rather be with some nerdy indoor type than someone who does weed or talks to people like poop. I prefer personality. Someone who's caring and sweet. Oh and I don't really like being spoilt, I feel guilty and weird. I'd much rather be the one doing the spoiling. To me, a cuddle means a lot more than some form of pressie. I mean, sure it's nice and appreciated when it does happen, but I'd rather the dude spent the money/time/effort on himself. One thing that is a huge attraction, is humour. If a guy can make me giggle, that right there is a win. I also like guys who can be open about their feelings, cry in front of me and not be ashamed of how they feel. Someone who is accepting and loves me the way I am, that's probably the biggest attraction ever.

Love isn't all about the spoiling or about who can be the sweetest, in my eyes, it's getting to know the person, being able to lie and talk about anything, being comfortable with them and who you are, and having all your little weird and wonderful habits and ways, accepted and loved.

And yeah, I'm feeling very loved at the minute due to a very lovely young man. He's awesome and possibly the weirdest, laziest and most boring dude ever, but I am weird, lazy and boring, so kinda makes us good together, right? Two peas in a pod. Wouldn't change it for the world. Oh and not only does he fit with my tough criteria, he's also dashing, especially in a suit!

I hope you all have the sick bucket on standby! Hehehe.

Toodles!

My fears and phobias

Hai!

So as a human, I'm rather pathetic when it comes to being scared of certain things. Most people have one or two fears, whereas I have a whole stack of them! Yes. I am pathetic, I'm aware, but I can't exactly help it? I've tried to get over a few of my fears but failed so I guess I just have to accept them and get on with my very boring life!

1. Rollercoasters.

I hate theme parks. I hate rides. I feel like throwing my guts and I always end up in tears. Defo a no go. Yes, I'm a party pooper!

2. Swimming

I cannot swim for the life of me. I hate water and I am afraid of drowning. I tried to tackle my phobia by having proper swimming lessons when I was in Primary school. As well as having my weekly visit to the swimming baths with my school, my mam paid for the lessons. I hated them. She had to drag me to them, I despised them. Also the teacher was a bit of a stroppy mare and got frustrated when I couldn't do something as simple as dunking my head under the water. And to this day, I cannot swim. I've been to water parks and hated my life. And also getting older and more body conscious also mean more hatred towards the popular hobby.

3. Death

No going to lie, death scares the poop out of me. The thought of not know what happens after, if anything just makes me feel sick. Must admit, the element of surprise does not appeal to me. Also leaving loved ones behind, upset (Yeah, you should be upset!) doesn't exactly make it easier. Then again, when I die I won't really have much say on the matter.



 4. Clowns

I effing hate these things. If I see someone dressed as a clown I totally freak out, I go into melt down. I think watching the film IT as a kid and the fact that my mam decorated my room with clowns, you know kids think things talk to them? I thought the clowns used to threaten to kill me and my mam had to come in and tell the wallpaper to leave me alone. Comical I know. Kinda says why I hate them. And the fact that it's an unfamiliar face puts me off. Not knowing what the person actually looks like freaks me out, weirdly. 

5. Needles

Me and needles do not mix. I am a wuss when it comes to pain and even though it's a tiny needle, that sort of pain makes me poo myself. Yeah, I have piercings, but I chickened out at the end and was kinda forced. 

6. Public speaking

So I'm a shy person, painfully around people I've never met/don't know well. I tend to have a big gob around my little group of friends and most of my family. However, I'm only really loud with my immediate family, the rest of the family, I'm very shy with. So the thought of speaking to a large group of people is something I cannot cope with. The thought that everyone is judging, everyone is thinking something, after all, everyone has an opinion! And the fact that I muddle up my words, sweat like mad, hold back the tears and lose my breath makes it a very traumatic and stressful experience.

So those are my fears. I am aware I'm pathetic but at the end of the day, I'm only human!

Toodles!

Sometimes I just need to keep my trap shut

Howdy!

So it's lovely and sunny here in Durham! However, I'm stuck in the house, in my cosy leopard print jarmies, feeling ill and sorry for myself. But hey ho!

This made me giggle

Basically I want to talk about my opinions, not on anything in particular, just about them in general. Right, so I am a VERY opinionated person. I have an opinion on everything and tend to only listen to mine, wrong? I know. Basically, I can't grasp the concept of you know, the whole time and place thing, which often gets me into bother. Sometimes my views and opinions can be some what, out there and offensive...But half the time I just blurt out what I think at the moment in time when certain subjects are being discussed and I don't think before I speak, which is something I really, really need to control. So for example, on Facebook a while ago made a statement which was "Chavs should stop breeding" Not the best thing to say if I'm at all honest. I didn't mean it as in Chavs should stop having kids all together, I mean everyone has the right to have children. What my statement was really about was the fact that "Chavs" seem to have children and who pays for it? Tax payers meaning my parents, meaning less money for them and making life harder. But yeah, I caused a bit of a stir with my statement all because I didn't think before I wrote. And when I actually thought about it, my anger was actually towards the government.

 I sometimes come across as a bit of a cow because I don't think about things before I voice them and end up wording them wrongly. I've a very accepting person, I believe in diversity and equality and my views sometimes don't show that, basically due to the reason that I don't think things through before I speak! So the moral of the story is, think before you speak!

Toodles!

I don't want to die as the girl who was boring and achieved nothing

Hai!

So I woke up this morning in a bit of a mood. I don't even know why I suddenly started thinking about this or whatever, maybe I had a dream about it. Hmmm... Anyway, I am petrified of dying. Not only that, but dying and not achieving a thing scares me even more. I know I'm only 17, I still have a lot of time ahead of me... Well I hope! *touches wood* But the thing is, I know it's wrong to compare yourself to other people, but most friends/acquaintances have atleast achieved something. And then there's me, I have achieved nothing. GREAT. I'm just...Boring. I haven't really got any hobbies, I've never won anything, I've never really done anything unqiue or worthwhile and I can honestly see my life being boring, and having nothing to show for it. I'm scared that I will be remembered as the girl who never achieved anything, who lived a boring life. Sure I like having a boring life with my pokemons, little group of friends and imediate family, I wouldn't change that for the world, but I want to do something, something that people would be proud of. I really need to get a hobby. I may invest in some form of instrument or maybe start dancing. I'm not sure, but I need something. Art no longer appeals to me like it used to, and let's face it, I'm not the best at beauty but I will continue to work at it, especially things like my nail art.  So hopefully I shall find something that I can put my time into!

Toodles!

Things that grind my gears

There are many things that grind my gears, but here are just a few. Yes, I winge and complain a lot. Get used to it!

1. Taylor Swift's music:

I'm sorry but I just cannot stand this woman. Don't get me wrong, I love my cheesy music! I have Aqua Greatest hits on my iPod, as well as Steps and SClub7. But Taylor Swift? Hell no, she's beyond cheesy. So cheesy that whenever I hear the song Love Story, I cringe and have to turn it off. Sorry to all you Swifters out there.

2. The countless "I'm getting pure wrecked the night yessaiii" status' on Facebook:

Every damn Friday&Saturday my news feed is filled with status' from mainly people under the age of 16 telling the world that they're going to get smashed, and I say world because they literally accept anyone. As a none drinker (I sound about 70) it makes me feel sick. Come on you're 13! You should be having girly sleepover, going out shopping with your friends, not going out in next to nothing getting off your face! If only your parent's could see! Oh wait, they can and fail to say anything, in fact they encourage it! They make me sick! 

3. Teenage pregnancy:

I'm aware that you can fall pregnant when using contraception, but should a 13 year old really be having sex? I think not. The other thing that grinds my gears is the ones who deliberately get up the duff because they think babies are cute. Eurgh, you have no way of supporting them and you don't intend to change that. You rely on the government and tax payers money! And then when you've had the kid and get bored looking after it, you then have the cheek to complain about your none existent social life! Should have thought about that before allowing someone to put their winky in your kitchen sinky! Then of course, their parent's have the sprog dropped upon them while the young mother goes out and gets smashed. Eww.

4. People who have no manners:

Is it really hard to say please and thank you? I think not.

5. Snow:

I hate the stuff. Not only is it freezing, slippy and minging, the thing that really does my head in is the immature knobs who think it's hilarious to throw snowballs, or at my college ice balls. You're 18, grow the hell up!

6. Mushrooms:

Eating a fungus is about as appetizing as eating my toe nail. I despise mushrooms. They make my life hell. They're in a few of my favorite foods, like Spag Bol. Why do they make my life hell? Well I spend about 15 minutes picking them out, leaving me with a cold, once yummy plate of food. And when they're cut smaller, that pisses me off even more! It doesn't matter how small they're cut, I can still taste them! You're not fooling me! You're making my life harder! *sad face*

And that blogger, is what grinds my gears! 

Toodles!   

Beauty therapists are brainless? Bitch please!

You know what pisses me off?

The fact that beauty therapists are looked down on. As a training beauty therapist I have been called brainless many times, and it really does my head in. Most people think beauty is an easy career. I honestly don't know why they think this! Yeah, it's not exactly Oxford, but I'd love to see someone who isn't trained attempt to perform a 40 step facial massage. The thing that's always said seems to be "all you do is file nails, how hard can it be" Well, first of all there's a certain way to file, then there's the nail anatomy which you need to know, you need to know all about health and safety, contractions and contraindications. So yeah, it's not as simple as just filing a nail. And it's not just about filing a nail, you need to know all about the anatomy and physiology. There's a lot to it. Most people don't realise how much it entails, and that pees me off. Yeah, it's not a course that's going to make you a total genius, but it's something hands on and fun. People always say to me "why you doing beauty when you could be doing your A levels?" This comes from people who hate going to college, they hate doing their A Levels. Fair enough, they do them, they want a good career. So do I. The difference is, I do something I love, enjoy and something I am passionate about, yet I get criticized. It's not just Beauty Therapy. It's all vocational courses. At my college the people who study A Levels look down on anyone doing a vocational course. They seem to think they're to easy and pointless, yet they've never studied one. My point is that people can't really call beauty therapists stupid when they don't know what it's about and what's involved. You think I just enjoy sitting there filing? I wouldn't be doing it if that's all it was. I have brains, not the best, but I have them. Beauty isn't just about the practical side for me, it's about understanding the body, learning tips and tricks, making the client feel good about themselves! And for me a big reason is to grow in confidence. I am a very shy and quiet person and by doing beauty, I've been able to grow in confidence, open up and improve my people skills. Yes, it's been a very daunting experience, there's been times when I've been a nervous wreck, but it's helped me a lot. Throwing myself in at the deep end, going through all the tears, butterflies and strops is paying off. A year ago I wouldn't even be able to ask someone got directions, not I'm able to hold a conversation with a client. That's a huge achievement for me. So year, beauty therapists? Brainless? Bitch please! 

Toodles!

First posts are always the hardest..

Hai der ^-^

I'm Shannon, most people call me Shan, I'm 17 and from the North East of England (And no, I'm not a tangoed whore like the cast of Geordie Shore) I do however study beauty therapy at a nearby college, but I'm not your typical barbie student! I am probably one of the most boring people alive. I rarely go out, have little to no social skills and I am obsessed with ducks. Some would say I'm not your typical girl, others would say I'm a freak, nerd, weirdo, emo... I've basically heard it all! Truth is, I'm a bit of everything, that's what makes me, me! I enjoy the simple things in life, cuddles, family, friends, smiles and laughter.

Anyway, enough of boring old me! I have made this blog to basically voice my views and opinions and vent my thoughts on my life, and other issues. I don't expect anyone to read this, you want a sort of getaway, somewhere to escape!

So that's moi!

Toodles!<3